Listen to the Beat

i can simply not wait until summer. it will be quite amusing. ^_^ with brandon, zach and i. hahaha how fun. :D :D :D.

today kinda sucked.

tomorrow prolly will too.

everyday will until i get him.

but. oh well. there is nothing i can do about it.

"i have a drinking problem on sundays" - brandon hahaha
"so do i!" - temple. what a dork.
"when i came out i decided it was too cold so i went back in" - :knocks over soda and gets it allllllll over his pants: - cody. lmao.
"you got some jizz on your cheek" - tina, to me.
"sorry i missed" - cody. omg ew ew ew lmao.
hmmmm. yeah. goooood times today. haha the chinese buffet and this morning was the best. cody rocks for paying. :]
i also went to i love new york pizza w/ andrea and then to stewarts for milkshakes. yay yay! :]. today was a totally awesome day for the most part.
later gater.

i hurt myself today

to see if i still feel

i focus on the pain

the only thing that's real

the needle tears a hole

the old familiar sting

try to kill it all away

but i remember everything

what have i become?

my sweetest friend

everyone i know

goes away in the end

you could have it all

my empire of dirt

i will let you down

i will make you hurt

i wear my crown of shit

on my liar's chair

full of broken thoughts

i cannot repair

beneath the stain of time

the feeling disappears

you are someone else

i am still right here

what have i become?

my sweetest friend

everyone i know

goes away in the end

you could have it all

my empire of dirt

i will let you down

i will make you hurt

if i could start again

a million miles away

i would keep myself

i would find a way

you let me violate you,

you let me desecrate you

you let me penetrate you,

you let me complicate

you help me i broke apart my insides,

help me

i've got no soul to sell

help me

the only thing that works for me,

help me

get away from myself

i want to fuck you like an animal

i want to feel you from the inside

i want to fuck you like an animal

my whole existence is flawed

you get me closer to god

you can have my isolation,

you can have the hate that it brings

you can have my absence of faith,

you can have my everything

help me

tear down my reason,

help me

it's your sex i can smell

help me

you make me perfect,

help me

become somebody else

i want to fuck you like an animal

i want to feel you from the inside

i want to fuck you like an animal

my whole existence is flawed

you get me closer to god

through every forest,

above the trees within my stomach,

scraped off my knees

i drink the honey inside your hive

you are the reason i stay alive

You're keeping in step

In the line

Got your chin held high and you feel just fine

Cause you do

What you're told

But inside your heart it is black and it's hollow and it's cold

Just how deep do you believe?

Will you bite the hand that feeds?

Will you chew until it bleeds?

Can you get up off your knees?

Are you brave enough to see?

Do you want to change it?

What if this whole crusade's

A charade

And behind it all there's a price to be paid

For the blood

On which we dine

Justified in the name of the holy and the divine

Just how deep do you believe?

Will you bite the hand that feeds?

Will you chew until it bleeds?

Can you get up off your knees?

Are you brave enough to see?

Do you want to change it?

So naive

I keep holding on to what I want to believe

I can see

But I keep holding on and on and on and on

[8X]Will you bite the hand that feeds you?

Will you stay down on your knees?

I believe I can see the future

Cause I repeat the same routine

I think I used to have a purpose

But then again

That might have been a dream

I think I used to have a voice

Now I never make a sound

I just do what I've been told

I really don't want them to come around

Oh, no

[Chorus:]Every day is exactly the same

Every day is exactly the same

There is no love here

and there is no pain

Every day is exactly the same

I can feel their eyes are watching

In case I lose myself again

Sometimes I think I'm happy here

Sometimes, yet I still pretend

I can't remember how this got started

But I can tell you exactly how it will end

[Chorus]

I'm writing on a little piece of paper

I'm hoping someday you might find

Well I'll hide it behind something

They won't look behind

I'm still inside here

A little bit comes bleeding through

I wish this could have been any other way

But I just don't know,

I don't know what else I can do

[Chorusx2]

GOOO STEELERS!