Listen to the Beat

yeah i know what you mean about the school thing and the trust thing. school would be hell without you. i prolly wouldn't even go. and as far as trust goes.... i only trust about 3 people because i have trust issues like whoa. and you're one of the people that i'll prolly always trust/trust with my life. tina as well i've known her for 6 years. god, i love you two so much

. ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alley Date: Dec 3, 2005 1:08 PM aww and ur my best friend too!!! whenever i see you its like my day brightens becuz u always know how to get me to smile. and i dno what i would do without you either, my life this year would have been nothing but complete hell if i didnt have you....its hard for me to trust ppl but i can trust you with my life.

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: katie-lynn Date: Dec 3, 2005 4:02 PM you can always make me feel 100% better no matter what happens. <3>

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alley Date: Dec 3, 2005 12:56 PM yeah i know :( i wish i could hug youuuuuuu becuz anytime i give you a hug it makes me feel better

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: katie-lynn Date: Dec 3, 2005 3:52 PM no i don't think he'll break up with you. i know he loves you. i just hope he stops the cutting. it really doesn't solve anything. hopefully everything will turn out okay. ooooh i wish i were with you so i could give you a huge hug.

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alley Date: Dec 3, 2005 12:50 PM he hung up at least an hour ago....he said he couldnt talk to me anymore ....and i was like omg he better not do anything stupid....i dno whats gonna happen to him and im scared..i really dont want him to break up with me!! and you know what he told me on friday? that he was in love with me and he knew it becuz he has never felt this way about anyone else before and he didnt know what he would do if he ever lost me

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: katie-lynn Date: Dec 3, 2005 3:45 PM omg i'm so sorry. all you have to do (if you're still talking to him) is tell him everything will be okay and that he'll make it through this. promise him that you'll be there for him and do anything whenever he needs it. it's because he is in pot widthdrawl and so that makes him angry. he told you about the mobil thing right? omg wish i could see him right now... calm him down. i'm sorry. i wish i could do something.

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alley Date: Dec 3, 2005 12:32 PM wow it seems were both having boy trubles now....brandon was pissed off and cut himself, he said it wouldnt stop bleeding and in the background his parents were screaming at him and all he said to me was..im breaking down and i dont know what to do :(

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: katie-lynn Date: Dec 3, 2005 1:56 PM aweee alleyyy!!!!! you're the best person ever. i would NEVER do anything stupid. don't worry. i'll be here forever and always. now why would i judge you??? never ever. yeah right. you're a better friend than i ever could be. and that's the truth. you're ALWAYS there for me and that's the kind of person i need. i would do anything thing for you and be there whenever you need me to be. always. that's a promise. i love you alley. you're the greatest. <33333>

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alley Date: Dec 3, 2005 10:14 AM you can make it through and you will....i wish i could make all the bad feelings inside you go away :( cuz all i want is for you to be happy...and you deserve all the happiness in the world. promise me you wont do anything stupid...becuz if anything happened to you i dno what i would do.....ur the best person i know and ur always there for me. i kno i could tell you anything and you wouldnt judge me which is awesome becuz ive never had a friend like that before. ill always try to be the best friend that i can be to you, but i know i couldnt come close to the kind of friend you've been to me. and yeah that sounds cheesy but i mean it....cuz i want you to know that you have one friend who would do anything for you...and try to help you in every way possible...so dont forget it...i love you soo much!!<3>

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: katie-lynn Date: Dec 3, 2005 11:40 AM he shouldn't be scared of anything. i'll gladly talk to him. yeah, maybe the weekend will make things better. who knows? i wish i could hang out but i'm grounded and i can't do anything. sorry. yeah i'm a strong person but i dunno if i can make it through this one. he's all i think about. alley i love you so much i dunno what i'd do without you.

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alley Date: Dec 3, 2005 6:08 AM well it was the day after you guys broke up so its normal for him to be acting like that...so many emotions goin through both of ur heads and everything...and i talked to him last night and i asked him why he wasnt talkin to you at all and he said becuz he was just scared and so he said that hopefully monday things will be better....trust me it might take a little time but he will come around eventually. and i promise you that, so just let loose this wkend and try to get ur mind off things, if he calls then good but he most likely wont....try to have fun and maybe if you can or want we could do something...anyways just hold ur head up love....ur a strong person and dont let something like this bring you down....and im just amazing becuz i care about my friends..there my life and i would do anything for them, without them i would be nothing. i love you a lot

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: katie-lynn Date: Dec 2, 2005 7:41 PM alley i love you. you're pretty much the most amazing person i've ever met. you keep saying things are gonna get better. how how? i mean. if he won't even pick up his phone for me... how can we make things better?

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alley Date: Dec 2, 2005 3:56 PM it's no prob dont worry....i feel so bad for you! i know how much you really liked him and i wish he didnt do that. it hurts me becuz ur my really good friend..like seriously ur one of my best friends and when ur sad, im sad becuz i hate to see you hurting like that...but i swear to you that things will get better. i promise. and u know im always here for you....and i wish i had gotten to give you a hug goodbye today :(

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: katie-lynn Date: Dec 2, 2005 6:48 PM omg. i don't hate him in the least. if anything i still really like him. he shouldn't be scared of me. i'm gonna call him tonight. it will make me fell better and hopefully him too. i'm really sorry that you're in the middle of this. i hate putting you there. i'm sorry. :( oh and nicki won't flip out on him because i told her not to.

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alley Date: Dec 2, 2005 3:43 PM hes scared of you...he thinks you hate him now and that nicki will flip out on him which she prolly would. but dont worry it was only the day after break up...things will get better soon. i promise you that! and i know its really hurtful and everything, but hes hurting too becuz he feels unbelievably bad.

----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: katie-lynn Date: Dec 2, 2005 4:21 PM thanks for the comment. i love you too. and that comment made me cry. :( i miss him. he said we could still be friends and he didn't even talk to me today.